Yall probably dont want to here this so here it goes........

[ldarrellc]

I have decided to sell all the coins I haveThe money that I make off of them will be used to do one thing in life I have been wanting to do forever. Basically I am giving up on everything. But you can garuntee I will go out with a bang.

[Bob P]

Well Darrell,
Everyone has their reasons for letting go of things they like, and I am sure your rationale is solid and thought out. I would venture to say that you will probably be back. I myself go through stretches where I seem to lose interest in the hobby, but invariably I come back, and pretty much have done that for the last 38 years (since I was 12 years old).
Whatever your endeavor, I wish you the best. You will always have friends here at the coppercoins forum.

[ldarrellc]

I appreciate it bob. and I thank you But i am just giving up period it isnt just with coin collecting. I will be making a list soon. of what I have to sell. I will donate 10 percent of the proceeds to coppercoins.

[creilly]

Darrell,
I just re-read your post for the forth time I can not help but say I am very concerned about you.
Giving up on EVERYTHING? Going out with a BANG?

I know you have had / are having some issues Darrell. I know life sucks sometimes.
I want to reach out to you. I want to know what I can do for you. I would move heaven and earth for a friend. Check the star maps.., little dipper is slightly to the left! I did that for my neighbors sister!! Maybe I can move it a little for you too.

I want to help you Darrell and I know that I am just some lines on a computer screen for you, we all are, but I/WE really do care. I care about your tomorrow. If you were my kid and I read that on her computer, I would be doing some serious intervention stuff right now!!

Maybe I am over reacting, better that than not saying anything.
I have your phone and address. I can send the police out to check on you!! I am not above that!!

So tell us, tell us what you have been wanting to do forever that you will go out with a bang?

Tell me that you will have a tomorrow everyday!

Love and prayers,
Catherine

[Dick]

Cathy, I, too am concerned. I have had a few emails with DArrell, and between the lines, I read depression. I know he has had problems, still does, and I am concerned about his welfare. I have a brother-in -law with similar problems, so I am a bit closer to the situation. I don't know what I could do, other than what I have already done, and that is only give moral support. Anything else will have to come from above. Anyone closer to him, that could be of help?
Darrell, I know you will read this, and I want you to know that if there was anything else I could do, it would already have been dione, in all sincerity.
Dick

[ldarrellc]

I will be alright dont worry about me. It is just being depressed and heard that bad news today. was hoping that finaces would pick up in the next month or so but that isnt happening so who knows what the Grim reaper holds for me. I am to the point of what ever happens happens. Am I going to hurt Myself? No I am not going to hurt Myself cant say I havent thought about it. But no I wont hurt Myself. All I can do is pray I do not wake up in the morning. Sorry for putting yall out like this and having yall have to listen to this. But I Do appreciate it. I dont want sympathy or for someone to feel sory for me I am doing a good enough job of that. Thanks again for being there and I appriciate it!!!!!!!!

[creilly]

Darrell,
I feel compassion. Not sympathy.
My first husband was a horrible man. Heck a horrible person in general. There was a time that I thought my only way out of that situation was in a box.
I sat down one day and I started writting and it changed my life, this is what I came up with.

Who am I?
That is a question I ask myself every day. This is not what I expected. I am not what I expected.
I was going to take the horse world by storm. I was going to ride all the best horses in all the best shows all around the world. I was going to live my life on the edge.
Instead I became a wife and mother.
Whats wrong with that you ask? Nothing, it's just ..., not what I expected.
Its just that in the back of your mind you know that one day along will come Mr. Right and then a home and children and all that will add to and not detract from the the person, the woman, everything that you all ready are. It's a given, a promise if you will.
It's just that I never expected. Expected to become one of them. One of the thousands of abused women in the world.
It's just that one day you wake up and Mr Right isn't so right and you have the house and the kids and all that goes with it. But what about the rest of it? What about the promise?
I never expected to become a divorced mother of two beautiful girls.
It wasn't the choice to be married that was wrong it was who, the man I that I chose.
I liked being married, or at least the idea of mariage. But again not what I expected.
I've picked myself up, washed myself down and taped myself back together again so many times, that now all I see in the mirror is cracks.
Is it the mirror that's broken or me?
I stand before you and this is it. This is who I am. I am a divorced abused mother of 2 beautiful girls. I have been broken by a life I never expected.
My hopes and dreams have shattered like a mirror.
The woman I see today is not what I expected.
Yesterday I gave up. Today I am... well,
I am the best I can be..., today.
I cant change who I was in the past or even who I am today. But I can change who I will be tomorrow.
I am the best that I can be, today. And tomorrow I will be just a little bit better.

While I know Darrell your are not an abused mother of 2, I do know your life has not turned out the way you expceted. No one's ever does. It took me a long time to learn that. Just be.. the best you can be today and I bet that each day will be just a little bit better.
I am sorry if I put you in an akward position here on the site.
Catherine.

[ldarrellc]

In No way did you put Me in an awkward position I appericiat6 all the advice and support I get from every one and to everyone I thank you Just keep Me in your prays.

[Bob P]

Darrell,
Read your private messages. I think you will quickly realize that all of us care about you. We can read between the lines, but as Cathy so beautifully said, it is compassion we feel for you, not sympathy. We are a family here, whether you know it or not. We do take care of our own to the best of our abilities. As I have mentioned before, you need to keep fighting for what you believe you are owed or have earned. Don't give up...just keep fighting, and we will all be there with you.

[ldarrellc]

Like I said before i am trying my best to keep fighting but it seems a whole lot more easier to give up hell if I did give up I wouldnt have the worries that I have now. That might be harsh to say but that it the truth and how I feel at times. But I thank each and everyone of you for trying to help and just being there.

[errorfinder]

idarrellc, i'am 'touched' . yes ; please read in the "head" YET there is humor in that 'saying'.creilly thanks for 'pickin' up on this at first.. myself 'working on "positive thoughts" entertained ideas of parachuting or hang-gliding "world exporation, for idarrellic.left ' it ' at that..i' rescently lost my internet access 'till today..i'll add to that "THANKS MUCH" to a member here on this site was 'enabled' to reconnect.Yes;this could be sent in 'pirvate mesage' ,yet No; i've nothing to 'hide'. thank you to those that make this a "family" . allowing for the 'humanis' which we all at least R 'O' part OF;Touched; please include -N- heart.compassion not sympathy!!! compassion,please consider,N part, due to :that which i've been 'unbelievabley' through; 'that'; which had not been previously recorded or accepted to be 'even scientifically' [humanly]considered possible.boil it down my Strongest desire was ; "i'll give[myself]completly up!"go out with a bang" along those lines and .. death does not necessarily 'change' everything.nor does money .. yet both can be 'helpfull.after 'dying' YES;(scienctifically) i was clinically 'dead' more than once..and more than a few minutes..the "being of "a happy person" is internal not external..though the external is ::: so 'intursive' IE. unwelcolmed visit or entrance.all the external "will" 'tell' one "there is no way out" the choice is internal "no cage" can or will hold; my being 'happy' my being is that of: being; happy, i will be happy, i'am in rememberance my happinesses and i accept that is my choice,has been my choice,and ___help me will be my choice. the 'life force ' that is in me; flow through to you in magnafied ways and speeds.shallow water approaching guess: i'll ; walk no deep water no need to "swim". hope any part of this is of service... blessings be accepted by you. from your 'family' here at coppercoins. sincerely , mark a. holmoe